It's Been FunSubmitted by Connor Baxter on Wed, 05/08/2019 - 8:18pm
In case the title didn’t make it obvious, this is my final year at Cowley. In the time I’ve been here, I’ve learned a lot.
Plenty of it is how bad I am at planning out my work schedule. Some of it was even academic. But, more than anything else, I’ve learned a lot about my writing and where I want to go.
That’s not to say that I know exactly what I’m doing. What I do know is that I found something I want to pursue for as long as possible, and my experience here, talking for uncomfortable amounts of time about weird stuff, has helped me with that.
I’m going to WSU in the hopes of getting an MFA in creative writing, and from there it’s anyone’s guess. While this sounds a lot like a non-plan, it’s the closest I’ve come in a long time to having things figured out, dammit. Despite my track record here, they’ve even hired me on to write for another online campus journal, where I will hopefully spend even more time making people feel uncomfortable.
My time here felt like it was several decades long each time finals came around, but now I feel like it’s taken me longer to write this than it did to get an associates degree. I spent a lot of time looking forward to this, but now it feels a lot like it did before, just with a new piece of paper to keep away from the cats. Which is an important point, for those of you that, like me, have had trouble feeling like you’re moving forward all this time. It never feels like you’re working towards your goals, because that’s a natural state of being for people. The fact that you’re here, reading this, means you’re probably connected to Cowley in some way. Whether you’re a teacher that felt obligated to see what your students were writing about, or a student that was somehow convinced to pay this place a visit, just know that you’re slowly but surely working towards what you want to do. Whether it’s that job you’re looking for, or a vacation, or any of the other things you might want, you’ll make it. You only feel like you’re standing still because you’ve lost the ability to notice your own betterment.
Of course, I guess I don’t have the right to say all that; I have a lot more schooling ahead of me before I get what I want. But, I’ll do it knowing that I’m working towards that bright, shiny whatever-it-is. And, more than almost anything else, I look forward to seeing all of you there with me one day.
Thank you all for the experience. It’s been stressful, concerning, and more than anything, fun. Congratulations on making it this far, and I’ll be seeing you around.