Feelings, Feelings, Feelings

As of now, I am really over this whole coronavirus epidemic. Because of the internet, everything is bigger than it should be and so many things are flying around I don’t even know what to think. And don’t even get me started about this whole quarantine thing. Talk about going out of your mind.
Okay, rant over, I promise. The reason for my short rant was to lead into the positives that have come out of this whole thing. On the first couple of nights, my creative juices were flowing. I wrote the first poem I had written in a long time. And I think it’s one of my best writings. A couple of nights later, I started reading Othello for my literature class, and it inspired, even more, writing out of me. Also, over the entire break, I have been journaling every night. Not just about the coronavirus, but about my life, my feelings, things like that. I am trying not to focus on the negatives. We all know how easy it is to do that. But by keeping close tabs with those in your life who you care about and who care about you, it is easier to keep your spirits up. I go on walks all the time with my friends (maintaining 6 feet of course), and still go on with my life as normal as possible. I also still have my job, which I know a lot of you can’t say, but it is one of the things that keep me busy enough to stay away from depression. I know how hard it can be to sit at home all day every day. It exhausts you, causes depression, and drains you of any will you had left in your body. Instead of sitting at home, get up and work out, go on a walk, do some art, or write. Trust me. It makes the time go by so much quicker, I would know. 
As for school, it has definitely been a struggle going from face to face to zoom. I tried to embrace it, and I have, for the most part, but my mindset is still not all the way there yet. I miss the feel of the classroom and knowing the students are there with you. I miss being in that room where we shared our stories and writing, knowing our words would not leave that room. Now, everything is said over the computer, our voices static and not ringing our true feelings. I find myself very tired when I enter zoom classes. The first couple of days, I tried to sit at my desk and focus on what was going on, but then I ended up moving to my bed, where I was just as unfocused as I was at my desk. Granted, it has only been a week, but hopefully, I will get back into things soon. Mostly, I just miss being with my friends at college, sharing our stories, hanging out after class, and the Steamy Joe’s Coffee Shop breaks.