"Daddy Issues"

Cowley Student (Vol. 8: 2019)

Do all fathers like to spend their days

fishing and drinking themselves into a haze

 

mine truly did

when I was a kid

 

“sorry I’m busy, stay with your mom instead,” he said

these words cut like a dagger to my heart

as they began to tear our relationship apart

 

 

Growing up I often got to see

Everyone having a dad but me

 

I watched him stumble and watched him fall

Now I can’t even answer when he calls

 

He put his addiction first

and I pray to out run his dreadful curse

 

he left me behind

Often still searching for the father I hoped to find

 

But I’ll never find my answer with him

Because with an alcoholic father a girl can never win.