Amidst Covid-19

For the past few weeks, my computer has been collecting dust. Even before spring break, I seemed to hit a wall,

and no more information was being let in or out. Then all hell broke loose, the world started panicking, and I got stuck in it all. Under it all, I knew I had a lot of looming deadlines—quite a few late or almost late assignments, and this blog to write. I have not wanted to write; I have not wanted to read; I have not wanted to do anything but learn everything I could about what’s happening in the world—preparing, checking in on people, stocking up, and navigating all the changes.  

There have been so many changes, each day a new set of rules, and adaptations to everything. My family has been under self-quarantine for six days now. We picked up essentials, got older family members are taken care of, and we have been here because we are ill. Also, every member of my family is in a high-risk population; so, we opted to start early.

Yesterday my children’s school closed for the rest of the year, and today I talked to my daughter about what she was going to do now that she can’t go back to the dorms. What did that look like for her? I have had to have some really tough conversations with my children about why we can’t go anywhere, and why school is canceled. I even had to tell one of my sons that the concert he wants for his birthday has been canceled. The next few months have changed in the blink of an eye, and I don’t know how to deal with that. 

This was supposed to be a bucket list year for me. I was going to get to graduate and finally walk across that stage. I was going to share more of my poetry at the writer’s corner. I was going to get to attend my first ever TEDx talk, go to see two brand new concerts, and take my kids on an epic birthday trip. None of that gets to happen now, at least not in the foreseeable future, and it makes me sad. 

I am still avoiding my assignments, but I dusted off the computer and am slowly starting to get back to work. I know the world doesn’t stop when a pandemic occurs, but I‘m hoping I can at least use it for an extension excuse.